Hello there. I just wanted to say a few things that have been on my mind lately. Sometimes my mind just randomly goes to thinking about Randy. You see, I have two children from him and they remind me of him also. But, as Amanda and Shawn get older I think of things. Amanda is going to graduate next year and I think of how proud her Dad would have been if he was here. All the milestones in their lives he is not here. The fact that Amanda and Shawn have to live life without their father. The songs that come to mind are To Where You Are by Josh Groban, I Can Only Imagine by Mercy Me (those two I had at the funeral) and I like Homesick by Mercy Me also. Randy does not have to imagine what Heaven is like-he is there!
I pray that my children know that I did love their Dad and I am sorry for the way things had to turn out for them. I also want them to know that life does continue on and that we do grow from every situation or pathway in our lives. Everything is a growing experience. God is always in control and He is always by our side-as long as we let Him be there. I know that my children accepted Christ as their personal Saviour but my hope is that they will continue to follow Him. And to know that there is a "better place" that we are heading to. We don't always understand why things happen but there is a reason and we will find out someday.
In Christ there are no Goodbye's. In Christ there is NO End. So, close your eyes and see God's face and put your sight on home (our heavenly home).
God takes us down certain roads or pathways and the ones we have traveled have been difficult at times. We all love our life and the way that it is. God has brought two more kids/step-brothers (Mitch and Mason)and a wonderful husband/step-dad (Tom) into our lives and we are looking forward to what is to come.